Yeah so I know I wrote that I "think" I'm in love... and what I meant by that was I'm in love but I dont want to admit it without her admitting it too. Who wants to be that openly vulnerable? I sure as fuck dont. I gotta tell someone though and I really feel like I cant talk to my friends about it. It really sucks cuz I always listen to them about their relationship stuff whether its good or bad but the minute I start talking about April their eyes glaze over and they tune me out. As soon as I open my mouth they get this look on their face like i brought up the subject of russian literature or something equally foreign. I think there are 2 reasons they do this
A. They're bitter
B. Sometimes I take long with my stories, I give full and significant details. I cant help it if I want you to get a clear picture of what I'm talking about. I'm not elaborating like Anne Rice or anything. But when I start talking its like all of a sudden they have the attention span of a fruit fly. Yet when they're talking to me I'm all ears all the way through.
Fuck it here's a third one:
C. They're not used to someone else other than themselves having my full attention. They're not used to me being with anyone. I mean I can understand that, I havent dated in 6 years so they're all used to single Mo. Seriously guys, it was bound to happen.
I gotta finish this later. Work is almost over for me.
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